After what she said, my heart sank a little. I became wary n doubtful. Don't want it to become nothing means not starting something..would i want this?
What happened the happy go lucky me - something passionate for a short while?
No I shan't be swayed.. I will always b myself.. I need to take heart take courage n just do it
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Monday, October 15, 2012
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Date w darling Val
Serve not Money, serve god. Money is the root of all evil.
With any job $ will be enough although $ might not be aplenty.
If you serve money, all is gone,there is no god and you can't even bring all the money to heaven with you
Above is what I was inspired from Val. We had hotpot culture at marina sq. we ate so much beef!!! Fun times.
With any job $ will be enough although $ might not be aplenty.
If you serve money, all is gone,there is no god and you can't even bring all the money to heaven with you
Above is what I was inspired from Val. We had hotpot culture at marina sq. we ate so much beef!!! Fun times.
Jcube third time this week
Two extremes are idealism and pragmatism. You wanna work what you like that's no money. You wanna make lotsa money, you wouldn't like the job too much. Where do you choose to be?
80% are happy doing and repeating the mundane life. 20% are not happy with status quo and fight for it. It is in the 20% that we have the special and successful people but their journey is also the most difficult. So where do you choose to be?
80% are happy doing and repeating the mundane life. 20% are not happy with status quo and fight for it. It is in the 20% that we have the special and successful people but their journey is also the most difficult. So where do you choose to be?
Monday, September 24, 2012
4 years on..
Clarissa,
I was happy to see your name appear on my list of contacts when I joined Linked In a few months ago! I think that since then I've been thinking about sending you an email just to touch base and say "hello". I see your long list of accomplishments and steady work on the site and I'm really, really proud of you! And from your photo I can see you're as pretty as ever!
I'm still working at HBS but my role there has changed significantly over the years and I'm always learning new, exciting and more marketable skills. I'm also STILL working on my masters degree but at least I'm almost finished. I have an apartment not far from that old farmhouse we used to hang out in, but this one's A LOT bigger and nicer! I also have two crazy dogs. XXX
Last year my brother and I hiked over 100 miles on the Appalachian Trail which runs through the Appalachian mountains from Maine to Georgia and I'm now intent on hiking the entire 2200 miles from start to finish within the next 3-5 years.
Well that's the (really brief) update but what I really wanted to convey to you is that whenever you enter into my mind I always think very fondly of you and the time we spent together. I have an overwhelming feeling of gratitude for having met you and getting to know you while you were here. You had a really positive effect on my life and meeting you surely changed my life for the better. I will never forget those times. I am also really proud of your success and still amazed by your courage as I can see you're still traveling the globe! I'm honestly not sure if you would fee the same about me being that our relationship ultimately ended but I hope you do have good memories of me still and I'd love to get the update on what's happened in your life if you find the time.
Sincerely,
I was happy to see your name appear on my list of contacts when I joined Linked In a few months ago! I think that since then I've been thinking about sending you an email just to touch base and say "hello". I see your long list of accomplishments and steady work on the site and I'm really, really proud of you! And from your photo I can see you're as pretty as ever!
I'm still working at HBS but my role there has changed significantly over the years and I'm always learning new, exciting and more marketable skills. I'm also STILL working on my masters degree but at least I'm almost finished. I have an apartment not far from that old farmhouse we used to hang out in, but this one's A LOT bigger and nicer! I also have two crazy dogs. XXX
Last year my brother and I hiked over 100 miles on the Appalachian Trail which runs through the Appalachian mountains from Maine to Georgia and I'm now intent on hiking the entire 2200 miles from start to finish within the next 3-5 years.
Well that's the (really brief) update but what I really wanted to convey to you is that whenever you enter into my mind I always think very fondly of you and the time we spent together. I have an overwhelming feeling of gratitude for having met you and getting to know you while you were here. You had a really positive effect on my life and meeting you surely changed my life for the better. I will never forget those times. I am also really proud of your success and still amazed by your courage as I can see you're still traveling the globe! I'm honestly not sure if you would fee the same about me being that our relationship ultimately ended but I hope you do have good memories of me still and I'd love to get the update on what's happened in your life if you find the time.
Sincerely,
Monday, September 10, 2012
I believe.
I believe.
I believe the equation is very simple. Everything is made up of simple equations. Too complex now? Simplify it. The equation ends up to be really simple. Take small, simple steps.
I believe we all CAN reach it. It's just how you see it. Know yourself and make yourself see it.
I believe our life, as explicitly put already, is OUR life. Take Control. If you believe in yourself, the whole battle's won.
Hear Jesus. He is rooting for you. We will win the devil.
I believe the equation is very simple. Everything is made up of simple equations. Too complex now? Simplify it. The equation ends up to be really simple. Take small, simple steps.
I believe we all CAN reach it. It's just how you see it. Know yourself and make yourself see it.
I believe our life, as explicitly put already, is OUR life. Take Control. If you believe in yourself, the whole battle's won.
Hear Jesus. He is rooting for you. We will win the devil.
Saturday, June 30, 2012
Luxurious chocolatey day
Listening to CA again: Trust the voice within, n yea, my chocolate is finished. Its really expensive but i think exquisite but then again, some cheaper chocolates seem more tasty. =p
Was fooling around with the phone app my darling sec friends.
Was at garden by the bay to watch Jason mrax. I didn't know what to think of it. The ticket was $100 and I didn't pay for it. I also didn't pay for my dinner and my sunrise at Starbucks.
Didn't dare ask..well anyway it was pretty memorable.
Was fooling around with the phone app my darling sec friends.
Was at garden by the bay to watch Jason mrax. I didn't know what to think of it. The ticket was $100 and I didn't pay for it. I also didn't pay for my dinner and my sunrise at Starbucks.
Didn't dare ask..well anyway it was pretty memorable.
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Voice within
In Ohio, When Jonathan drives us to work ill always be listening to Christina Aguilera to gear myself for war each day.
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when the world starts to fall
Young girl just hold tight
You'll see a brighter day
Look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Trust your voice within
And you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within
Life is a journey
No one can stop you
On a happier note, ros is pregnant praise god!
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when the world starts to fall
Young girl just hold tight
You'll see a brighter day
Look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Trust your voice within
And you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within
Life is a journey
No one can stop you
On a happier note, ros is pregnant praise god!
Saturday, April 28, 2012
My birthday
Darling first person to celebrate it for me. Not telling you how old I am lol!! I was a little sick but it was awesome hanging out. I told her everything that happened in Ohio, almost. 
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Infatuation
He comes from a foreign land, an island far away, intrigues me with every move. Getting lost in el ritmo he whispered te quiero te quiero. Its pure infatuation. Should I let him take me back to puerto Rico..Papi hold me never let me go..
Friday, February 17, 2012
An extract from a blog
I really like this. I don't know how true this is but I'll like to read it again later
Ghodse is often a misunderstood character. He is referred to as a Hindu fanatic. It is often hard to understand Godse because the Government of India had suppressed information about him. His court statements, letters etc. were all banned from the public until recently. Judging from his writings one thing becomes very clear – He was no fanatic. His court statements are very well read out and indicate a calm and collected mental disposition. He never even once speaks ill about Gandhi as a person, but only attacks Gandhi’s policies which caused ruin and untold misery to Hindus. Another interesting point to note is that Godse had been working with the Hindu refugees fleeing from Pakistan. He had seen the horrible atrocities committed on them. Many women had their hands cut off, nose cut off, even little girls had been raped mercilessly. Despite this Godse did not harm even single Muslim in India which he could easily have. So it would be a grave mistake to call him a Hindu fanatic.
Let us start by studying the motive behind Godse’s act. By seeing the nature of the assassination in public space and Godse’s act of turning himself over to the Police, we can see that Godse did not do this for personal reasons. He very well knew that he would be hanged and his name would be disgraced as Gandhi was considered a saint. And again Godse could have ran away and escaped punishment. But he did the reverse. He called a police officer and courted arrest. Before we proceed it would be wise to understand the backdrop of the assassination.
The central government had taken a decision — Pakistan will not be given Rs 55 crores. On January 13 Gandhi started a fast unto death that Pakistan must be given the money. On January 13, the central government changed its earlier decision and announced that Pakistan would be given the amount. On January 13, Nathuram decided to assassinate Gandhi.
Nathuram Godse was a learned man, very sharp and intelligent – editor of “Agrani” (one of the most famous newspaper of that time – with Nana Aapte). In his last editorial of “Agrani” which he changed overnight – he said “Gandhi must be stopped – at any cost” and he justified why Gandhiji’s assassination was not only inevitable but also a delayed action, sth tht shud’ve happened LONG AGO.
In Nathuram’s words – “ I don’t refute Gandhi’s theory of non-violence. He may be a saint but he is not a politician. His theory of non-violence denies self-defence and self-interest. The non-violence that defines the fight for survival as violence is a theory not of non-violence but of self-destruction.The division of the nation was an unnecessary decision. What was the percentage of the Muslim population as compared to the population of the nation? There was no need for a separate nation. Had it been a just demand, Maulana Azad would not have stayed back in India. But because Jinnah insisted and because Gandhi took his side, India was divided, in spite of opposition from the nation, the Cabinet. An individual is never greater than a nation.
In a democracy you cannot put forward your demands at knife-point. Jinnah did it and Gandhi stabbed the nation with the same knife. He dissected the land and gave a piece to Pakistan. We did picket that time but in vain. The Father of our Nation went to perform his paternal duties for Pakistan! Gandhi blackmailed the cabinet with his fast unto death. His body, his threats to die are causing the destruction — geographical as well as economical — of the nation. Today, Muslims have taken a part of the nation, tomorrow Sikhs may ask for Punjab. The religions are again dividend into castes, they will demand sub-divisions of the divisions. What remains of the concept of one nation, national integration? Why did we fight the British in unison for independence? Why not separately? Bhagat Singh did not ask only for an independent Punjab or Subhash Chandra Bose for an independent Bengal?
I am going to assassinate him in the open, before the public, because I am going to do it as my duty. If I do it surreptitiously, it becomes a crime in my own eyes. I will not try to escape, I will surrender and naturally I will be hanged. One assassination, one hanging. I don’t want two executions for one assassination and I don’t want your involvement, participation or company. (This was for Nana-Apte and Veer Savarkar as they were against ghandhi’s policies too, Godse wanted to assassinate gandhi all by himself and took promise from Nana Apte that he will continue helping Veer Savarkar in rebuilding India as a strong free nation.)
On January 30, I reached Birla Bhavan at 12 pm. Gandhi was sitting outside on a cot enjoying the sunshine. Vallabhbhai Patel’s granddaughter was sitting at his feet. I had the revolver with me. I could have assassinated him easily then, but I was convinced that his assassination was to be a punishment and a sentence against him, and I would execute him. I wanted witnesses for the execution but there were none. I did not want to escape after the execution as there was not an iota of guilt in my mind. I wanted to surrender, but surrender to whom? There was a good crowd to collect for the evening prayers. I decided on the evening of January 30 as the date for Gandhi’s execution.
Gandhi climbed the steps and came forward. He had kept his hands on the shoulders of the two girls. I wanted just three seconds more. I moved two steps forward and faced Gandhi. Now I wanted to take out the revolver and salute him for whatever sacrifice and service he had made for the nation. One of the two girls was dangerously close to Gandhi and I was afraid that she might be injured in the course of firing. As a precautionary measure I went one more step ahead, bowed before him and gently pushed the girl away from the firing line. The next moment I fired at Gandhi. Gandhi was very weak, there was a feeble sound like ‘aah’ (There are proof that Gandhi did NOT say “Hey Raam” at that time – it’s just made up stuff ) from him and he fell down.
After the firing I raised my hand holding the revolver and shouted, ‘Police, police’. For 30 seconds nobody came forward and I scanned the crowd. I saw a police officer. I signalled to him to come forward and arrest me. He came and caught my wrist, then a second man came and touched the revolver… I let it go…”
Ghodse is often a misunderstood character. He is referred to as a Hindu fanatic. It is often hard to understand Godse because the Government of India had suppressed information about him. His court statements, letters etc. were all banned from the public until recently. Judging from his writings one thing becomes very clear – He was no fanatic. His court statements are very well read out and indicate a calm and collected mental disposition. He never even once speaks ill about Gandhi as a person, but only attacks Gandhi’s policies which caused ruin and untold misery to Hindus. Another interesting point to note is that Godse had been working with the Hindu refugees fleeing from Pakistan. He had seen the horrible atrocities committed on them. Many women had their hands cut off, nose cut off, even little girls had been raped mercilessly. Despite this Godse did not harm even single Muslim in India which he could easily have. So it would be a grave mistake to call him a Hindu fanatic.
Let us start by studying the motive behind Godse’s act. By seeing the nature of the assassination in public space and Godse’s act of turning himself over to the Police, we can see that Godse did not do this for personal reasons. He very well knew that he would be hanged and his name would be disgraced as Gandhi was considered a saint. And again Godse could have ran away and escaped punishment. But he did the reverse. He called a police officer and courted arrest. Before we proceed it would be wise to understand the backdrop of the assassination.
The central government had taken a decision — Pakistan will not be given Rs 55 crores. On January 13 Gandhi started a fast unto death that Pakistan must be given the money. On January 13, the central government changed its earlier decision and announced that Pakistan would be given the amount. On January 13, Nathuram decided to assassinate Gandhi.
Nathuram Godse was a learned man, very sharp and intelligent – editor of “Agrani” (one of the most famous newspaper of that time – with Nana Aapte). In his last editorial of “Agrani” which he changed overnight – he said “Gandhi must be stopped – at any cost” and he justified why Gandhiji’s assassination was not only inevitable but also a delayed action, sth tht shud’ve happened LONG AGO.
In Nathuram’s words – “ I don’t refute Gandhi’s theory of non-violence. He may be a saint but he is not a politician. His theory of non-violence denies self-defence and self-interest. The non-violence that defines the fight for survival as violence is a theory not of non-violence but of self-destruction.The division of the nation was an unnecessary decision. What was the percentage of the Muslim population as compared to the population of the nation? There was no need for a separate nation. Had it been a just demand, Maulana Azad would not have stayed back in India. But because Jinnah insisted and because Gandhi took his side, India was divided, in spite of opposition from the nation, the Cabinet. An individual is never greater than a nation.
In a democracy you cannot put forward your demands at knife-point. Jinnah did it and Gandhi stabbed the nation with the same knife. He dissected the land and gave a piece to Pakistan. We did picket that time but in vain. The Father of our Nation went to perform his paternal duties for Pakistan! Gandhi blackmailed the cabinet with his fast unto death. His body, his threats to die are causing the destruction — geographical as well as economical — of the nation. Today, Muslims have taken a part of the nation, tomorrow Sikhs may ask for Punjab. The religions are again dividend into castes, they will demand sub-divisions of the divisions. What remains of the concept of one nation, national integration? Why did we fight the British in unison for independence? Why not separately? Bhagat Singh did not ask only for an independent Punjab or Subhash Chandra Bose for an independent Bengal?
I am going to assassinate him in the open, before the public, because I am going to do it as my duty. If I do it surreptitiously, it becomes a crime in my own eyes. I will not try to escape, I will surrender and naturally I will be hanged. One assassination, one hanging. I don’t want two executions for one assassination and I don’t want your involvement, participation or company. (This was for Nana-Apte and Veer Savarkar as they were against ghandhi’s policies too, Godse wanted to assassinate gandhi all by himself and took promise from Nana Apte that he will continue helping Veer Savarkar in rebuilding India as a strong free nation.)
On January 30, I reached Birla Bhavan at 12 pm. Gandhi was sitting outside on a cot enjoying the sunshine. Vallabhbhai Patel’s granddaughter was sitting at his feet. I had the revolver with me. I could have assassinated him easily then, but I was convinced that his assassination was to be a punishment and a sentence against him, and I would execute him. I wanted witnesses for the execution but there were none. I did not want to escape after the execution as there was not an iota of guilt in my mind. I wanted to surrender, but surrender to whom? There was a good crowd to collect for the evening prayers. I decided on the evening of January 30 as the date for Gandhi’s execution.
Gandhi climbed the steps and came forward. He had kept his hands on the shoulders of the two girls. I wanted just three seconds more. I moved two steps forward and faced Gandhi. Now I wanted to take out the revolver and salute him for whatever sacrifice and service he had made for the nation. One of the two girls was dangerously close to Gandhi and I was afraid that she might be injured in the course of firing. As a precautionary measure I went one more step ahead, bowed before him and gently pushed the girl away from the firing line. The next moment I fired at Gandhi. Gandhi was very weak, there was a feeble sound like ‘aah’ (There are proof that Gandhi did NOT say “Hey Raam” at that time – it’s just made up stuff ) from him and he fell down.
After the firing I raised my hand holding the revolver and shouted, ‘Police, police’. For 30 seconds nobody came forward and I scanned the crowd. I saw a police officer. I signalled to him to come forward and arrest me. He came and caught my wrist, then a second man came and touched the revolver… I let it go…”
Friday, February 10, 2012
Flying on Chinese new year
I was on Korean air last Saturday. It started with roller coaster turbulence and it didn't sit well with me at all. I got so nauseous I asked the air stewardess if she has any pill for me. Her response: pill? My response: medicine. Her response: ahhh wait a while ok sure. Me: waited for 15 minutes on the verge of death. After medicine felt the same even had to vomit in bag and asked her to clear later. I felt so sick I later fell asleep in Korean airport for a while during transit and boarded the flight late. Reach sing and couldn't really eat for 2 days cos the nauseousness didn't go away! I was like a pregnant lady!!
Anyway I'm fine now but I'm gonna fly again in a week. I want to upgrade to business class!! And I'm sure I can't do Korean air again because it doesn't do Ohio but its good I'm tired of Korean air food - bibimbap every flight anyway.
Hetu got upgraded in Canada air last week. I am so so envious. Doo Wu was on Lufthansa and she likes it much. I hope I'll move on to another excellent flight
Anyway I'm fine now but I'm gonna fly again in a week. I want to upgrade to business class!! And I'm sure I can't do Korean air again because it doesn't do Ohio but its good I'm tired of Korean air food - bibimbap every flight anyway.
Hetu got upgraded in Canada air last week. I am so so envious. Doo Wu was on Lufthansa and she likes it much. I hope I'll move on to another excellent flight
Monday, January 23, 2012
Art institute of Chicago
It's amazing how much emotions some of the art pieces stirred up inside me. The paintings are so intriguing and enigmatic I felt I a sense of emotional release cos I know the artists were having the same disturbance as I once did. Depending on how you connected with van Gogh, Claude Monet or Picasso I felt emotionally enriched understanding myself and them through their art pieces. Strange but true.
Some paintings are humorous, some beautifully and skillfully drawn and painted, some, like van Gonh's freaked me out; not sure if it's becos I already knew he had hallucinations and admitted to the asylum later. Some of the drawings had randomly disconnected components and I especially like that as it shows the bleak and astute environment of ours
I like the impressionist period. Going back to earlier times where they do darker gothic paintings bore me now I've seen a lot of that in Washington dc ; its fantastic in the smithsonian museums but I realize the impressionist paintings speak to me so much that I want to pick up a paint brush to express to you how I'm feeling too!
Some paintings are humorous, some beautifully and skillfully drawn and painted, some, like van Gonh's freaked me out; not sure if it's becos I already knew he had hallucinations and admitted to the asylum later. Some of the drawings had randomly disconnected components and I especially like that as it shows the bleak and astute environment of ours
I like the impressionist period. Going back to earlier times where they do darker gothic paintings bore me now I've seen a lot of that in Washington dc ; its fantastic in the smithsonian museums but I realize the impressionist paintings speak to me so much that I want to pick up a paint brush to express to you how I'm feeling too!
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Friday at culver on a snow storm day
There's a snow plower going on the roads. Thanks to them or I c no dividers for driving. Even after the plow I don't c the parking lots lines so I parked whatever. I shouldn't say this but it was fun
Monday, January 16, 2012
Food
Feel like going Chang jiang later for bee hoon. For about usd10 you can eat all you want Chinese food. Not the best but if you visit a restaurant n order a main it would b about $10 anyway.
Problem is I'm uncomfortable w the staff there who probably will hit on me again. Never going there alone again
Problem is I'm uncomfortable w the staff there who probably will hit on me again. Never going there alone again
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Abundance of grace
When bad things happen the world seems to darken.People say keep the faith my heart desires so too. In this carnal world I feel so of fresh and so my heart calls out fervently for god to melt the grief the anger and the stone in my heart.
I know i am righteous and I am destined to reign I am in abundance of grace I am going to bask in the gift of the holy spirit. Perfect love cast out all fear . Romans 8:1 there is therefore no condemnation for those who are in Christ jesus who walk not after the. Flesh but of the spirit.
I call for my trinity to fill me.
I know i am righteous and I am destined to reign I am in abundance of grace I am going to bask in the gift of the holy spirit. Perfect love cast out all fear . Romans 8:1 there is therefore no condemnation for those who are in Christ jesus who walk not after the. Flesh but of the spirit.
I call for my trinity to fill me.
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
A long day
I can't believe how long physically n mentally this day is. Been up at 4am to drive dad to hospital. Tyre had to give way n go flat as I exit the highway in d morn. Didn't want d drama of kicking parents down d car to call for a cab when the hospital just 3 minutes away n yes I stretched the flat tyre for almost 1 km. not the best choice but at least parents reached destination.
Wish I could know more about this flat tyre changeout process. Had to tow baby blue to ubi which was 30minutes away.
Baby blue also attracted much attraction as it rested at the hospital taxi stand n blocking the whole stretch of traffic there. The tyre was quite exploded.
N dads operation went smoothly. I can't say how it could be much better because the doc came by n handled our many questions and emotional let go.
Well the living environment could be better I went to the patient service centre to enquiry how I could move dad from a b2 class to a A or b1. B2 is a highly subsidized ward n if I move him anywhere I've to foot the subsidy of almost $5000 n additional ward fees for the class change. The price breakdown is highly complicated or technical as it concerns government subsidy, amount that can be paid by medi shield n cash deposit. I was very confused as I did not know the 3 terms before. I went in twice n I still could not understand enough to make a concrete decision on whether I should pay for the upgrade. I know I'm not easy to talk to because I have to know enough for my neurons to hit by synapses to excite me to a decision.
The counter girl was Malay, scrawny and who speaks n type on the calculator like Ive worked there for years like she had. As she babbled on the cost I got frustrated because all I wanted to do was to understand and all she wanted to do was to do it her style. Coupled with jetlag which always get very difficult in the evening which could b the reason why I was quite thick in the head, I began to repeat my questions. And she began to look really irritated and so, I shouted at her I didn't exactly make sense all I wanted to do was to be loud at her. I wish I could be louder but I didn't had much to say.
Anyway then she began to talk to me like a kid which I'm sure she did it on purpose, I began to understand. I said a very quiet thanks and walked away. I still feel she could have done a better Job but from her tone I could tell she's just someone mediocre she can't read the situation good enough to b professional. In other words she's a little dim and I was a little obtuse.
Dads ok in bed at a 6beded ward. As we asked if hes ok he mumbled away feebly. Can't freaking tell what's his reply but heart feels painful to realise that he's freaking old now. I'm not upgrading his bed cos I'm afraid I'll increase outrageously his outpatient fees n any tests that he might have to do. He will still have to pay by medisheld even though I can pay part of it cash upfront. So I might just b causing more damage to him.
Need gods love n strength for me to go on. For Jesus so love the world that he gave up his one and only son. if it is already paid for I just have to rest in your spirit. I know I will b able, you will take over lord.
Too exhausted now. Good night
Wish I could know more about this flat tyre changeout process. Had to tow baby blue to ubi which was 30minutes away.
Baby blue also attracted much attraction as it rested at the hospital taxi stand n blocking the whole stretch of traffic there. The tyre was quite exploded.
N dads operation went smoothly. I can't say how it could be much better because the doc came by n handled our many questions and emotional let go.
Well the living environment could be better I went to the patient service centre to enquiry how I could move dad from a b2 class to a A or b1. B2 is a highly subsidized ward n if I move him anywhere I've to foot the subsidy of almost $5000 n additional ward fees for the class change. The price breakdown is highly complicated or technical as it concerns government subsidy, amount that can be paid by medi shield n cash deposit. I was very confused as I did not know the 3 terms before. I went in twice n I still could not understand enough to make a concrete decision on whether I should pay for the upgrade. I know I'm not easy to talk to because I have to know enough for my neurons to hit by synapses to excite me to a decision.
The counter girl was Malay, scrawny and who speaks n type on the calculator like Ive worked there for years like she had. As she babbled on the cost I got frustrated because all I wanted to do was to understand and all she wanted to do was to do it her style. Coupled with jetlag which always get very difficult in the evening which could b the reason why I was quite thick in the head, I began to repeat my questions. And she began to look really irritated and so, I shouted at her I didn't exactly make sense all I wanted to do was to be loud at her. I wish I could be louder but I didn't had much to say.
Anyway then she began to talk to me like a kid which I'm sure she did it on purpose, I began to understand. I said a very quiet thanks and walked away. I still feel she could have done a better Job but from her tone I could tell she's just someone mediocre she can't read the situation good enough to b professional. In other words she's a little dim and I was a little obtuse.
Dads ok in bed at a 6beded ward. As we asked if hes ok he mumbled away feebly. Can't freaking tell what's his reply but heart feels painful to realise that he's freaking old now. I'm not upgrading his bed cos I'm afraid I'll increase outrageously his outpatient fees n any tests that he might have to do. He will still have to pay by medisheld even though I can pay part of it cash upfront. So I might just b causing more damage to him.
Need gods love n strength for me to go on. For Jesus so love the world that he gave up his one and only son. if it is already paid for I just have to rest in your spirit. I know I will b able, you will take over lord.
Too exhausted now. Good night
Monday, January 2, 2012
Jet lag
Tired slept at 9 now it's 3. Spent a short time w the cuties
Sis last night was playing w my iPad she was clueless about using it n tuned in to you tube for one of her first times she was quite annoying as she had it on really loud
Sis last night was playing w my iPad she was clueless about using it n tuned in to you tube for one of her first times she was quite annoying as she had it on really loud
Sunday, January 1, 2012
ANA
Saw T1 online for Nippon airways. Shuttle driver dropped me at T1. I c ANA n I thought no its NIppon. We both panicked n he asked me to check so I saw its All Nippon Airway ANA on my printout. We both got a scare. Then, he held both my hands, grinned n said stg like good luck. I chuckled n said no c you next week!
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