Sunday, December 12, 2004

HUH!

I'm now workin in NTU, centre for continuing education, a secretary for Prof Daniel Lwin also an 'office ger' doing all sorta odd jobs. The previous girl doing this job has gone for a mission trip, so i'm replacing her temporary. She took 2days to farmilarise me with the job scoop and in the 4daes with her, she helped mi integrate in the environment and treated mi with utmost respect. (u noe, when u r under, u tend to b less superior)



She was sharing how excited she is to b able to go Indonesia to teach the children the ITs, how they are goin to do construction and how much time she has put into preparation for this trip. Having influenced by her sharing, i was saying how excited i felt for her too. Partly becos' i went to Popular wif her to buy postcards for her inter-cultural exchange and how funny it was when we were both trying to figure out whether Haw Par Villa still exists as a tourism spot.



I took over her duties for a dae, this the second.



She just called back, saying her Dad just passed away. She is flying back to Singapore now.



No. I'm not goin to share how cruel life is to me. tt now tt she is back, she can take over the job again and i'll lose my job. If she wants to come back, i'll gladly pass the job back. I dun like to work anwiae.(hahaha) I'm not goin to sae how bothesome it is to take 1hr of my salary to her donations to aid her. And, it is not how wasted her preparations is.



It is how vulnearable life is. It is how unexpected things can be.



It just reminds me to treasure life. For every meal i eat, I now understand betta the meaning to saying grace and thanking God. For every gal fren i've, for my sisters, for my family and for anyone who has walked a journey with you, appreciate that they are there to help, to smile at you and to make your life more beautiful. Becos' u never noe whether they will leave this earthly world.



Life is fragile.





Sunday, December 5, 2004

BACK!!

halo!

I'm back from HM5, refreshed and restored.

My wounds were found and healed. Bitterness released.

I feel so much joy. Not in the physical form but the genuine peaceful kind that sustains!

Life can never be betta. Questions and doubts were answered and i just have a clearer idea on what to expect in life. I feel so much hope and love to carry on. I just loveeeeee Jesus sooooooooo much...............................................................................................................................



JESUS RAWKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



God knew what was going on in my mind. He attended to my insecurities and my lack. He replaced it with His power, might and strength. He knew what i strongly desire and He started work in this camp to pave my way through. I'm just so glad that He plan excellent leaders, brethens and sistas to speak to me. I spoke to Thomas,kok haw, Chin Fern, lewis and of cos' Big sista Alice, i felt so edified. And so BLESSED.



You know, i cried. BUCKETS of tears. I've never cried This much. I feel so touched by God and I just want to thank God for everything, especially the fact that He loves me. so much so tt He had planned an excellent job for mi in NTU tom. Goin to start work, earn money and be prosperous. Wif such a BIG God, its hard not to prosper and to walk in His mighty love. =)



I LOVE JESUS.......BECOS HE FIRST LOVE ME........=)