Art institute of Chicago

It's amazing how much emotions some of the art pieces stirred up inside me. The paintings are so intriguing and enigmatic I felt I a sense of emotional release cos I know the artists were having the same disturbance as I once did. Depending on how you connected with van Gogh, Claude Monet or Picasso I felt emotionally enriched understanding myself and them through their art pieces. Strange but true.

Some paintings are humorous, some beautifully and skillfully drawn and painted, some, like van Gonh's freaked me out; not sure if it's becos I already knew he had hallucinations and admitted to the asylum later. Some of the drawings had randomly disconnected components and I especially like that as it shows the bleak and astute environment of ours

I like the impressionist period. Going back to earlier times where they do darker gothic paintings bore me now I've seen a lot of that in Washington dc ; its fantastic in the smithsonian museums but I realize the impressionist paintings speak to me so much that I want to pick up a paint brush to express to you how I'm feeling too!

Lucas

Can't help but linger w my love

Friday at culver on a snow storm day

There's a snow plower going on the roads. Thanks to them or I c no dividers for driving. Even after the plow I don't c the parking lots lines so I parked whatever. I shouldn't say this but it was fun

Food

Feel like going Chang jiang later for bee hoon. For about usd10 you can eat all you want Chinese food. Not the best but if you visit a restaurant n order a main it would b about $10 anyway.

Problem is I'm uncomfortable w the staff there who probably will hit on me again. Never going there alone again

Abundance of grace

When bad things happen the world seems to darken.People say keep the faith my heart desires so too. In this carnal world I feel so of fresh and so my heart calls out fervently for god to melt the grief the anger and the stone in my heart.

I know i am righteous and I am destined to reign I am in abundance of grace I am going to bask in the gift of the holy spirit. Perfect love cast out all fear . Romans 8:1 there is therefore no condemnation for those who are in Christ jesus who walk not after the. Flesh but of the spirit.

I call for my trinity to fill me.

Korean air

Is really good. Actually food now I think ANA is more splendid

Breakfast

Being at home can get a little overwhelmed. How can I constantly eat so much

A long day

I can't believe how long physically n mentally this day is. Been up at 4am to drive dad to hospital. Tyre had to give way n go flat as I exit the highway in d morn. Didn't want d drama of kicking parents down d car to call for a cab when the hospital just 3 minutes away n yes I stretched the flat tyre for almost 1 km. not the best choice but at least parents reached destination.

Wish I could know more about this flat tyre changeout process. Had to tow baby blue to ubi which was 30minutes away.

Baby blue also attracted much attraction as it rested at the hospital taxi stand n blocking the whole stretch of traffic there. The tyre was quite exploded.

N dads operation went smoothly. I can't say how it could be much better because the doc came by n handled our many questions and emotional let go.

Well the living environment could be better I went to the patient service centre to enquiry how I could move dad from a b2 class to a A or b1. B2 is a highly subsidized ward n if I move him anywhere I've to foot the subsidy of almost $5000 n additional ward fees for the class change. The price breakdown is highly complicated or technical as it concerns government subsidy, amount that can be paid by medi shield n cash deposit. I was very confused as I did not know the 3 terms before. I went in twice n I still could not understand enough to make a concrete decision on whether I should pay for the upgrade. I know I'm not easy to talk to because I have to know enough for my neurons to hit by synapses to excite me to a decision.

The counter girl was Malay, scrawny and who speaks n type on the calculator like Ive worked there for years like she had. As she babbled on the cost I got frustrated because all I wanted to do was to understand and all she wanted to do was to do it her style. Coupled with jetlag which always get very difficult in the evening which could b the reason why I was quite thick in the head, I began to repeat my questions. And she began to look really irritated and so, I shouted at her I didn't exactly make sense all I wanted to do was to be loud at her. I wish I could be louder but I didn't had much to say.

Anyway then she began to talk to me like a kid which I'm sure she did it on purpose, I began to understand. I said a very quiet thanks and walked away. I still feel she could have done a better Job but from her tone I could tell she's just someone mediocre she can't read the situation good enough to b professional. In other words she's a little dim and I was a little obtuse.

Dads ok in bed at a 6beded ward. As we asked if hes ok he mumbled away feebly. Can't freaking tell what's his reply but heart feels painful to realise that he's freaking old now. I'm not upgrading his bed cos I'm afraid I'll increase outrageously his outpatient fees n any tests that he might have to do. He will still have to pay by medisheld even though I can pay part of it cash upfront. So I might just b causing more damage to him.

Need gods love n strength for me to go on. For Jesus so love the world that he gave up his one and only son. if it is already paid for I just have to rest in your spirit. I know I will b able, you will take over lord.

Too exhausted now. Good night

Jet lag

Tired slept at 9 now it's 3. Spent a short time w the cuties

Sis last night was playing w my iPad she was clueless about using it n tuned in to you tube for one of her first times she was quite annoying as she had it on really loud

ANA

Saw T1 online for Nippon airways. Shuttle driver dropped me at T1. I c ANA n I thought no its NIppon. We both panicked n he asked me to check so I saw its All Nippon Airway ANA on my printout. We both got a scare. Then, he held both my hands, grinned n said stg like good luck. I chuckled n said no c you next week!

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I'm so looking forward to meeting my love