A long day

I can't believe how long physically n mentally this day is. Been up at 4am to drive dad to hospital. Tyre had to give way n go flat as I exit the highway in d morn. Didn't want d drama of kicking parents down d car to call for a cab when the hospital just 3 minutes away n yes I stretched the flat tyre for almost 1 km. not the best choice but at least parents reached destination.

Wish I could know more about this flat tyre changeout process. Had to tow baby blue to ubi which was 30minutes away.

Baby blue also attracted much attraction as it rested at the hospital taxi stand n blocking the whole stretch of traffic there. The tyre was quite exploded.

N dads operation went smoothly. I can't say how it could be much better because the doc came by n handled our many questions and emotional let go.

Well the living environment could be better I went to the patient service centre to enquiry how I could move dad from a b2 class to a A or b1. B2 is a highly subsidized ward n if I move him anywhere I've to foot the subsidy of almost $5000 n additional ward fees for the class change. The price breakdown is highly complicated or technical as it concerns government subsidy, amount that can be paid by medi shield n cash deposit. I was very confused as I did not know the 3 terms before. I went in twice n I still could not understand enough to make a concrete decision on whether I should pay for the upgrade. I know I'm not easy to talk to because I have to know enough for my neurons to hit by synapses to excite me to a decision.

The counter girl was Malay, scrawny and who speaks n type on the calculator like Ive worked there for years like she had. As she babbled on the cost I got frustrated because all I wanted to do was to understand and all she wanted to do was to do it her style. Coupled with jetlag which always get very difficult in the evening which could b the reason why I was quite thick in the head, I began to repeat my questions. And she began to look really irritated and so, I shouted at her I didn't exactly make sense all I wanted to do was to be loud at her. I wish I could be louder but I didn't had much to say.

Anyway then she began to talk to me like a kid which I'm sure she did it on purpose, I began to understand. I said a very quiet thanks and walked away. I still feel she could have done a better Job but from her tone I could tell she's just someone mediocre she can't read the situation good enough to b professional. In other words she's a little dim and I was a little obtuse.

Dads ok in bed at a 6beded ward. As we asked if hes ok he mumbled away feebly. Can't freaking tell what's his reply but heart feels painful to realise that he's freaking old now. I'm not upgrading his bed cos I'm afraid I'll increase outrageously his outpatient fees n any tests that he might have to do. He will still have to pay by medisheld even though I can pay part of it cash upfront. So I might just b causing more damage to him.

Need gods love n strength for me to go on. For Jesus so love the world that he gave up his one and only son. if it is already paid for I just have to rest in your spirit. I know I will b able, you will take over lord.

Too exhausted now. Good night

Jet lag

Tired slept at 9 now it's 3. Spent a short time w the cuties

Sis last night was playing w my iPad she was clueless about using it n tuned in to you tube for one of her first times she was quite annoying as she had it on really loud

ANA

Saw T1 online for Nippon airways. Shuttle driver dropped me at T1. I c ANA n I thought no its NIppon. We both panicked n he asked me to check so I saw its All Nippon Airway ANA on my printout. We both got a scare. Then, he held both my hands, grinned n said stg like good luck. I chuckled n said no c you next week!

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I'm so looking forward to meeting my love

Chinese New Year

So I had a really really good Chinese new year, meeting some of my favourite people, especially Shihan. Haven’t met that treasure in the longest time. This new year is really special cos’ Sista brought back Lucas baby who had been in the ICU and then SCU for a few months. He has grown so much so much – I couldn’t help staring at him non-stop. I can’t wait for him to grow bigger so I can kiss him! Right now he’s still vulnerable so I can’t touch him without sterilising my hands and such. Of cos meeting Alda and the rest was really nice. =D Last but now least, I brought my psuedo-kids parents to Resort World Sentosa. They like it, and when we got back home, mummy found out she's won 1st prize 4D. She's gonna use the money to go korea with Dad, she said.

Ok btw I’m proud to be single so stop the being-single talk.

Zoo

went to the Mandai Zoo today!! I remembered when i was 20 or somewhere there, ying was singing the song I'm going to the Zoo Zoo Zoo and Z attempted to sing it today too, except he forgot the tune of it! I don't remember whether i had enjoyed being at the Zoo with ying, Dren and the rest, but today i had some good fun!

Z is doing a trip to Africa in Oct and he was talking about seeing tigers there, but today we saw on the board that there are no Tigers in Africa, only in Asia!

For White Tigers, they were repoduced by this one white tigeress called Mohan spotted in 1951. So somewhat incest was commited and the population today.



And next, we saw the Baboons, which are some monkeys with some heart shaped ass. And there were so many of them living under the same community! You should see Z's hilarous, shocking face when he saw the Baboons. In the pic, if u can spot the affection, one Baboon is picking ticks and dead skin for another. OH SO TOUCHING for some awkwardly-looking beast.




Of cos we saw the biggest animal - the elephant. They are not as big as the one in Phuket that Darling WL and I sat on. But they are pretty well-trained, more so than the ones in Phuket. But actually the ones in Singapore are of a tamer looking species. At least the mahouts did not have to keep using the Aṅkuśa (or ankus, anlius)–a sharp metal hook used in the training and handling of the elephant. Makes me nostalgic of the trip in Phuket with WL sitting on the clumsy, rebellious, young elephant - it was one hell of a rocking back-breaking ride.










Lastly, of mentioned is the white peacock. Did it come from the heavens? OH GOD! And we also spotted another indigo coloured bird, with a resplendent, different-shades of-purple crown. But it doesn't have any feathers behind. It wasn't stated what it is. Z said it must be a chicken. LOL............what a beautiful chicken.


We also happen to see the lions' feeding time so chunks of raw meat was thrown over to them and they feast on it voraciously. YUM. I stared at the feasting for a little while. What is it that these lions have that made them so agressive? ROAR.




















So I didn't take any pictures with Z at all, if you don't count the pictures taken by the kid (who take the pictures for the visitors at the door). Reason being: too shy.

PLAY

I feel a little like a fallen star, receding to a normal stone.
Am i receding toward an ebb of social enjoyment?
I loved the thrill and the rush, and I called it life. I used to embrace them, in any sort they might come.

But now i fear. People reaffirmed me it is the way I am, and don't stop. But i didn't force myself to falter. Surely, it is indeed myself who wants to take a back seat. I remember vividly when i said "No, i wouldn't marry a 50 year old, it's not true love, and I want true love".

Let PLAY just stop for a bit.